Danglyparts
FreeOnes turned me straight!
4 times. twice when i almost drowned and twice when my two friends got shot
That's gangsta.Nah. Sometimes I kinda feel like dyin.
Nah. Sometimes I kinda feel like dyin.
Now I look back at that and wonder if I did the right thing. You see, this girl whom I had known for half of my life, and had thought of as the love of my life for almost a decade, to whom I had literally given everything I had, the one whose religion I had adopted because she wouldn't marry anyone who wasn't of her faith, the one whose parents had referred to me as a second son, the one for whom I would've bent over backwards for, showed me that loving someone not only makes you vulnerable, but it makes you their puppet. About 2 or 3 years ago, more or less, probably more, since I don't think I was yet a member of Freeones, I tried to give her a diamond ring. We had spoken about marriage several times before, and, though we hadn't explicitly agreed that we were gonna get married, it seemed clear that we would be together. Anyway, long story short, when I proposed to her, she rejected me, saying that she only saw me as a friend, and that she should've made that clear when she started seeing the signs years ago, but that she had gotten too comfortable with everything I did for her. She subsequently stopped talking to me, claiming that she didn't wanna hurt me any more than she already had. I guess what hurt the most was that everyone who knew us could see that I would've been the most devoted guy she could've found, yet she failed to see that.
So, yeah, ever since that I've stopped really caring enough to be afraid. Whatever.
When I was five I was already a smartass and pissed off one of my cousins who lived in a high rise apartment. The bastard picked me up and held me over the balcony 10 floors up.
These past few days my anxiety has been the worst its been since middle school. I've lost some money and I miss my family more than ever. And it's making me wonder if other people had moments in their lives where they actually feared for their safety and/or future. I don't like being gloomy but I have to get it out of my system.![]()
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I would have passed out.. that is freaking scary :surprise: