Hey, I think my point must have been lost in translation. I have a criminal justice background.....and one of the things I dealt with in college was suicides and statistics related to them. My point was that, contrary to what people believe from watching Hollywood movies and television shows, people RARELY leave suicide notes much less announce their plans to commit suicide. I know plenty of people who either worked in or currently work in law enforcement.....and they have 1st hand knowledge by responding to suicides.....and the fact is that there are RARELY suicide notes left behind....because, like I said, suicide is an impulsive act.
I can't speak as to what was behind "Galactic 22's" post, nor did I actually attempt to do so. What I can say, based upon my education and real life experience, if there really was a "dark message" behind his post.....it REALLY was a cry out for attention (based upon whatever...some suggested alcohol driven...I don't know). When people are SERIOUS about killing themselves...like I already stated...they RARELY advertise it...much less leave a suicide note. I only mentioned the "writing a song" thing based upon the way the "message" was delivered....coupled with the Metalica clip.
Like I said, my main point was that there is a MAJOR misconception (created by Hollywood) that people advertise their plans to and/or leave a note before committing suicide. That's not an opinion....it just a fact.
I don't know him from Adam, nor do I know what was behind the post.....so any advice I could have given wouldn't have been worth very much. I'm just saddened that anyone would have thought that I was being heartless and/or that I would encourage someone to commit suicide.
I'm not going to lie.....and I'd SINCERELY appreciate this not leaving this thread AND that it not come up again after today...BUT, in my youth (though I haven't done it in YEARS), I probably tried to commit suicide 8 times or so (I'd get REALLY sad over something FUCKING STUPID & too often I would act impulsively in response to it). I had a pretty decent life and I actually had a lot of friends (still do) and people who loved me. Still, I would have MAJOR bouts of sadness that would hit me like a brick wall at times and I'd have these IRRATIONAL feelings that nobody cared about, much less loved me. I'm still an overly emotional person...but I have gotten the implusiveness better under control. Of course, upon reflection, I wasn't really serious about it......but that didn't stop me from trying....and possibly succeeding. I had depression issues, and I didn't deal with feeling sad (inside) very well (though all of my friends only saw a VERY happy person). Nothing that I tried could make me feel truly happy....I mean I could pretend....and evidently I succeeded pretty well because nobody detected how I REALLY felt. My standard method was to take pills....which by the way is a typical method for women (men on the other hand not too surprisingly usually shoot themselves when they are SERIOUS about it) them....BUT, when guys do it (try to kill themselves with pills)....it's usually for attention...which it was for me I believe was the case. One time I took a bottle (36) of sleeping pills which REALLY fucked me up for days....and syrup of ipecac helped my throw up and probably lessened the damage (though I didn't go to the hospital).....and another time, I took about a half bottle of my mother's blood pressure pills that REALLY fucked me up & attacked my liver. I was SERIOUSLY ill for weeks and I believe I sustained permanent liver damage from that one. So yeah....I know a bit of what I am talking about. I tried to hang myself once when I was 6-8 years old. AND no, I did not advertise it and NO I did not write a suicide note and NO I haven't tried anything do fucking stupid in years.
I genuinely believe suicide is the ultimate selfish act and fuck I have tried it 8 times or so myself. Nothing is solved by killing yourself.....and face it...things are NEVER as bad as you think/feel they are....and face it further....there are always plenty of other people who have a harder "plight" in life than you do.
If anyone has seen my posts before, they would see (at least I believe they would see) that I try to be honest (sometimes brutally so) in what I post.....and I NEVER just try to post something to get a reaction (stirring the pot if you will.....unlike a few others I have encountered). Thanks for just assuming that what I originally posted was a negative message and that I was just trying to be a heartless dickhead. I hope this post helps clear things up for you.....and in the future, at least with regard to me....I hope you will not just assume the worst about me. Thanks! :hatsoff:
