To the OP, I don't know what's going on with you and all......or if that "killing myself" stuff was serious or not (if it was, that is definitely not a healthy way to be thinking, and you should seek out professional help before it gets to that point.....unlike some, I'm being totally serious there....and believe me, NOBODY wants you to do that).......But, I like to spread positivity, so all I have to say is:
Hey, it's the only Happy Birthday image I have hosted anywhere, and it's pretty cheerful.....so.....dude.....Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!